traitor to the color of passion

erased over out

2004-05-12T01:45:14Z

texass_chick is obsolete

In a couple of days I will be deleting this journal. It's not important why but all you need to know is that I don't want it anymore. If any of you still want to read my life, l0ve1nve1n is the name to add for I shall post there. Toodles.

PizzaFace

2004-05-09T00:44:27Z

I got a job at New York Pizza in Willowbrook. That's fly. =)

Chad's Party!

2004-05-01T20:16:31Z

NEWS FLASH!!!

Tomorrow: Sunday, May 2nd 2004

CHAD'S 22nd B-DAY PARTY!!!

Be there or be square.

10002 Spotted Horse Dr.
Houston, TX 77064
(281) 894-0955

=))))))))

OPERATION SWEDEN HELP =)

2004-04-27T21:04:39Z

I left an entry on my other name (L0ve1nVe1n) but here I would like to humbly ask for my friends help. Chad and I are doing a lot to get to Sweden. Your generous donations will very much help us along the way and we want you to know we thank you so very much for all your help and we won't forget you when Chad's famous on his friends label and had put out many records. Thank you so much!!!!!

Extension of BIG NEWS!!!

2004-04-27T07:32:06Z

OK guys.. Sweden details...

01. Chad has been there - LOVED it.
02. We both have each other for support.
03. Chad's best friend Torny lives in Sweden.
a. Torny owns his own record label.
b. Torny is in a band called Project-X
c. Torny is a great guy.
d. Torny has offered Chad to come live with him.
04. We live with Torny until we're on our feet.
05. This will be fulfilling Chad's dream.
06. Torny/Chad have the major music business hookups.
07. Chad's new song was just put on a real CD.
08. We will save enough money to get over there.
09. Our parents want to help us out as much as they possibly can.
10. Clean air/Beautiful surroundings/Great healthcare
11. Chad and I can finally be happy.

Yes, yes... We know there are many thing to take into consideration. I won't be able to bring my kitty in which I love so dearly. I don't know if he'd be able to handle to shipment across the ocean even as soon as I could get enough money to have him shipped. I will tremendously miss my family. I don't know how I could leave my sister/best friend in the whole world and my Mommy. I know I'll have to leave one day and now that we have the opportunity, why pass it up? I know those who love me will be happy for me and want whats best. There are things I need to take care of before we leave but right now our main goal/focus is Sweden. We call it...

!!!OPERATION SWEDEN!!!

I love you guys and I will definitely keep you posted. Thanks for all your support.

New account babies!

2004-04-22T11:29:18Z

Got a new account!!! Best go add me loves. <333

L0ve1nVe1n

Finished the yard and...

2004-04-18T19:40:16Z

...my 'puter all pretty now. Too bad yall can't see my bootscreen and log on screen. Pretty too. =)

At the Copa....

2004-04-18T14:05:29Z

I'm here at 9 in the morning. I haven't slept.

Chad is snoring.

I'm listening to Barry Manilo and Señor Coconut.

At the Copa, Copa Cabana.

I just ate yogurt.

I'm fixing up my computer decking out greeny tropical paradise.

Bonnie is jealous I know it.

*big smile*

Life is good.

OMG....

**SHOW ROOM DUMMIES**

I love chad and duckies and beavers.

2004-04-16T01:38:53Z

Today was a good day. I guess. Well, at least the evening was. I was sad all day sue to stupid female shit and then in the evening when I finally went out for ciggies it was so wonderful outside perfect weather a little paradise. So I got my ciggs, went to sonic for slushes, fed the duckies/beavers, then went to the park and now here I am whee. Tomorrow I think i'm gonna go see Bonnie and Chad and oh yeah..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY RYAH!! *wink*

Here you go kids.

This would be mama beaver.
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..and her little baby!!!
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Mean ass duckie wanting to steal the crackers.
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The sky was beautiful.
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A Good Day

2004-04-10T05:26:44Z

So today was grande. It was a wonderful day - only problem is I'm now short of dough.

What my love and I did today:

*Went to see Hidalgo at the theater - good movie.
*Ate at the 59 diner. Yummy.
*Came home for a short nappy nap which was lovely.
*Karen brought home chinese food - score.
*Went down to this carnival and went on crazy rides fun fun.
*Stopped at Sonic on the way home for shakes. =)

So here I am now, we just watched Matchstick Men on pay-per-view since ever Fri new movies come out. It was pretty decent. Good role for Nicolas Cage... But anyway..

Today, I discovered that some ugly unimportant kid and his used MAXi-pad boyfriend/girlfriend w/e the fuck it is, has been talking mad shit about myself, my sister, my love, my kitty, and the coolest brother and law ever. His words are 110% inaccuarate and I might just say he will severely pay for his childish actions. He's erased over out and my baby and I will see to it. He's attention hungry because nobody loves him - only use him for the bit of money that he does have. He's a fucking bum and when he realizes the world isn't how his tiny mind perceives it to be, he's going to go blow his brains out. The anticipation kills me. He just entered a world of hell. Bye Bye Robert!

P.S. ~ I had a couple of useless tickets at the carnival because the only rides you can go on for 2 tickets are kids rides soooo... Chad had the idea to give it to some kid who'd be greatful. So we're walking out and guess what.. hahaha.. omg.. He hands it to like the 2nd kid he sees and the kid turns out to be retarded. AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW I gave chad shit the whole way home. He gave a retarded kid tickets. The Mom was all like happy and saying thank you and showing the kid the tickets awwww.. hehehehe Chad!!!!! You softie! I love you baby.

P.S.S. ~ The other day Chad bought roses for Bonnie and I and it melted me and he's the best thing to walk this earth. I fucking love you so much!! <333

Cows

2004-04-08T17:09:49Z

So Mon night Chad and I went to Austin spur of the moment. Fun stuff. John was glad to see us and though we didn't get very many pics because Chad had a problem leaving it in the car, we did get some. On the way home at 7 in the morning thru the fog I did find a cow pasture off of 290 and had to stop to greet the cows. They were suspicious at first but one of them warmed up to me and in this segment I would like to thank him for being a courageous cow. Now on with the show...

AWWW look at the veal!!!!!
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It was under this bridge and it was dark and scary and I had to...
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PeePee
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Hmm.. Morning and our car HI CHAD!
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He's my shadowplay...
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Hi baby I love you! <33
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SpoOky foggy church ohhhh.
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****~~~COURAGEOUS COW~~~****
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Go into the Light!
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Welcome to Texas 1
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Welcome to Texas 2
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It was painful, it was worth it.

I am Bunchies and I got hooked up.

2004-04-05T06:06:25Z

So yeah tonight was most awesome. Day sucked. Slept until 2 and Chad woke me up informing he mowed the lawn and edged and stuff looks nice. So yada yada washed the car and washed his Dad's car for him since we're such pro's. So ok then it starts to get real shitty.
Went to Walgreens to pick up some stuff and they fucking denied my card. (?!?!?!!) I had 32 bucks there this morning and now it's all gone I don't understand. Stupid. So then we leave and Chad and I get into a mini fight and I decide to go down to the galleria to see Bonnie.
Turns out my parents were having WW3 in the house screaming at each other and slamming doors and Paul threating to beat my Mom's ass I'da killed him. So Bonnie Chad and I get out of there and go to IHOP in Meyerland Plaza since the one by her house is so horrible. Get this shit....
First IHOP we went to, after reluctantly being seated by this asshole, we sait like 15 mins and no one comes to our table to take our order.. So we see the asshole walk by and we say "Sir we've been here for like 15 mins and no one has come." and he fucking rolls his eyes and asks "Well what do you want?" so then we decide to go to the GOOD IHOP.

Yup.. Our waitor HOOKED US THE FUCK UP man. We ordered coffee and just 2 stuffed french toasts (for me and Chad) and Bonnie ordered a scoop of ice cream. Hmm. Somehow we ended up with..

*2 stuffed french toast COMBO meals (incl. hash browns, bacon, and eggs.)
*2 sodas
*2 coffees and and
*an enormous sundae

How much did all of this cost you ask? Fucking $6.50!! Damn near everything was free. All he charges us for was 2 one half french toasts. hehehe hahahah YES score. So we left Charlie a 6 bucks tip which he was really happy for. He deserved more but that's all we had to spare for the cool guy.
So yeah ok then we take Miss Bon-Bon home since it was past her bedtime and on the way home I see the security guard dude guy in the empty parking lot of my job so we stop and say hi and kljsfkjsdncl baodfhlasd HERE I AM NOW woohoo ok tonight was good and some people are really awesome and all of you guys here in Houston should ONLY go to the meyerland plaza IHOP. Yes. *salute*

Peter Cottonail has flew the coop bitches.

2004-04-04T08:37:06Z

Hey. Today was shit. I spent 5 hours inside a 103 degree bunny suit and almost died or something like it. Most horrible thing I think I'll never do anything like that again. At least I got to see kids cry and cling onto their Mommy when I took my head off. Here's a few shitty pics.

My shitty workplace cuz I hate it.
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*GASP* for fucking air.
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Yeah, hi, go suck a fuck.
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Hmm, does anybody happen to know just how in the fuck I get hard water stains off the windows of our car?? Jesus.. I've tried pure ammonia w/ newspaper and vinegar on it for an hour and baking soda and NOTHING man... Kills me. So let me know.

I'm exhausted, goodnight.

The Bestest Boner Ever

2004-03-31T08:23:35Z

I just watched the movie Thirteen. I can definitely understand why a lot of people have said this movie sucked but... to me it meant a lot and I know.. Bonnie.. if you see this movie, I know it will mean a lot to you too. This young girl meets this horrible girl and gets into so much shit.. skipping school and drugs and sex and CUTTING very badly... Bonnie, there was a part in the end of this movie when the mom finds out about the cutting.. the mom lifts up the girls sleeve and kisses her scars. It's so sad but you know everything is going to be ok from them on. Bonnie this entry is dedicated to you.
I want everyone to know how wonderful my little sister is. She's a beautiful soul and she's been thru so much and has helped me so much with so many things. She's passionate and the best sister anyone could ever dream of having. I remember lying on the gurdy bed in the hospital as the doctors stitched up my arm.. Bonnie stood next to me the whole time holding my hand smiling down on me thru my tears and pain. She knew if she made a sour face, I'd see and it would hurt more. But no. She helped me survive it. Her smile reminded me that everything would be alright.
She's a true artist. All those fucks wanna talk about how tortured they are... Bullshit. Bonnie has been thru her own blood dripping on the floor and tissues covered in pain colored red. She's been thru unnecessary hospital visits and people polluting her mind. Telling her that she's something she's not and guess what - she's overcome it all. She still struggles with some things but she knows we all love her and that it will be ok.
Bonnie has been there for me when I got thrown to the curb and she cleaned my bloody toes and she's slept in filth with me - just out of devotion. She's fought for me and damn near almost died for me.
Bonnie I owe you my life. I'm so sorry I couldn't have been a better role model for you. I'm sorry I had to be something horrible to look up to and I wish I could have changed it all. But I know that you have the gift to have been able to look all past that. You saw me as your sister - the one who could understand you and even in all my shame, would always stand by your side. You deserve the world in all it's glory and then some. Eden and the heavens you deserve it all. You're going to live a long life full of people admiring you and loving you. I love you so much Bonnie and I want to thank you from the bottom of my heart for being there for me always. For suffering for me. I want you to know it's never gone unappreciated. You deserve to be the older sister. You're wiser anyhow. Thank you so much Bonnie I just hope someday I can repay you somehow. You know I'm always here for you no matter what. I love you Bonnie!!!!!!!!

Love.. Love with tear us apart.. again.

2004-03-30T06:34:08Z

Ahh so alright, it's been a good week. I must apologize for not posting enough. Saturday night was good times. Well, early in the day I got my hair cut (as you shall see) and then later on went down to hang with Bonnie, Ryah, and Zaina. Hmm we got bored so we went downtown to drive around. Showed Bonnie the Axium and Chad found solitude at this building with blue lights on top - it was simply a pond or something. Turned out to be the Reliant Energy building. It started raining so we brought the people back yay. hmm... Did I forget to mention at Bennigan's, our waiter gave us free drinks? How cool is that? You're jealous now I know it. Ahem... but yeah... Today was blah just got some shit done like cleaning and laundry and washing car such and such. Tomorrow I go to work at 5 and I've been informed Sat and Sun I get to dress up like a big fucking easter bunny and take pictures with peoples pets. Ohh yeah *sarcastic clap* I wonder if they'll know I'm on acid or if I'm naked under there lol yeah right I wish. I don't get paid enough. Ugh. My poor baby has been sick with a stomach virus for the past 2 days and he's just now starting to feel better. I'm sorry babe I'm glad you feel better *muah!*

But yes I love love love my Chad my beautiful baby doll. April 10th will be 5 months and every day just gets better and better. Getting to know him more and to become more so part of him as he is part of me. I know the truth when at night while we're falling asleep in each others arms, he whispers to me "What would I do without you? I love you." Ah, divine. A bit of heaven. He's my God and without him I am just a hollow shell. He's my bright light and I would die for that man. He's irresistable and my smiles have become brilliant and true. No one else for all eternity - Chad I fucking love you. <3333333

Yes, and you would like to eat here I know you would.

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"To the depths of the ocean where all hopes sank, searching for you."

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Pardon me, do you have any Grey Pupon?

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"Nights in white satin... never reaching the end."

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So, which is yours??

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"Here comes Peter Cottontail.."

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"In a room with no window in the corner, I found truth."

Be excellent to each other.

Another Day Another Dollar

2004-03-24T01:26:37Z

So today was alright. Work is alright. Worked 10-5 today and it was slow as fuck and the only reason(s) I'm staying at Petsmart is because 1) The fear of getting kicked out and 2) I love the animals. On the other hand, the people I work with are fucking rejects. Stupid fucks. Oh yeah, I fucking hate Pitbulls almost as much as I hate pitbull owners. Wannabe gangster animal cruelty motherfuckers. Oh well.
The weekend was good. Saturday at the beach was incredible, Sunday... What did I do Sunday? Oh yeah. Chad and I washed his Dad's car for 20 bucks, went to Taco Cabana then to IHOP for coffee with ciggy's which is always great and yeah. Monday? Worked. Today.. worked. I'm off tomorrow with no plans other than to do absolutely nothing.

I really miss the beach with my fave people. It's the best thing in the world to lay on a towel under a umbrella watching my baby soak up the sun digging his fingers into the sand. When I know he's truly happy, I'm truly happy. It's a place to ferget all your worried. You forget home. The beach is beautiful.

So here I sit.. All comfy and showered and feeling refreshed. I'm tired but that's beyond my thoughts right now. I'm here with mi amour and it's all I could ever ask for. I love him so much. I'm so scared for the Air Force though. For bootcamp he'll be away for 6 weeks. I can't go live with him on base until he's finished with it. I have no idea what I'll do in that time. I guess get everything in my life situated. And how am I going to leave my sister and my Mom? I'm so confused. God it's so hard. I love you Bonnie and I love you Mom but I can't leave the love of my life. I'll follow him anywhere. 110% devotion. Well I think I'm going to go pull him down on the bed now and hug him and kiss him and hold him forever.

Thanks to all of you who commented on my last entry. John and Dana and Steven and Bonnie.. You're all beautiful souls. I appreciate your words and they mean so much to me. You're all stars. Goodbye all. =)

salute

2004-03-21T08:59:57Z

Dear Diary,
Today was amazing. Bonnie, John, Chad and I went to the beach down in Galveston. It's Saturday, it's spring break and it was a beautiful day. We all packed a huge umbrella, sammiches for lunch, and sodas and it was great. We saw many dead jellyfish and that was peculiar. Chad made a little heart in the sand and put "TIFF" in it - so so sweet. I got to lather him in suntan lotion (not that he needed it since he's phawkin' french and american indian lucky bastard). Yadayada.. why the fuck do I bother?
Yeah... So there was a little discrepancy at the chocolate store when we were cruising The Strand but that's alright. Rushed John home and took Bonnie to rent Polterguist (sp?) and watched it at her house.
There is many great pictures but I'm not going to waste my time posting them. I'm probably going to give up on LJ completely. Why spend 2 hours making an entry for 2 comments? Haha. Yeah. Anyhow.. I'm fucking beat. Got 5 1/2 hrs of sleep last night and must have drove like 150 miles today - or more! I think I'll sleep good now. Definitely. Bye.

P.S. ~ I think I'm going to start starving myself and poping diet pills because I really do hate myself. =)

Fuck yes.

2004-03-20T08:39:42Z

ok I cheated just a wee bit so I could get these guys cuz they phawking rawk. Blood and bourbon baby. Rawr.

You are Twig & Molochai.

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So mañana, Chad, Bonnie, John and I are gonna hit up the beach because I've been wanting to go and tomorrow is supposed to be beautiful. Only problem is that it's late and I have to be up by 8 and that sucks but oh well. It's gonna rock. I'll let you know. Oh yeah, Bonnie has pictures of ghosts and you're jealous.

texass_chick @ 2004-03-15T01:24:00

2004-03-15T07:25:07Z

Stolen from Myke. YaY =)

♥Tiffy and ♥Chad

Will never have four malevolent girls.
Love to lovingly serenade each other for the foreseeable future.
Let their fans read more in the book of the same name.

Orchestrated by ianiceboy

Anoher day... Nope, that's it.

2004-03-13T07:06:54Z

Well...

Today was packed with shit. Let's just run thru it real fast.

*Woke up at 10
*Picked up my check, cashed it, got cigs and gas, got Jamba Juice
*Called DPS for license, they said to make an appointment.
*Went down to the Galleria
*Ate lunch at Eatzi's
*Picked my sister up from school gave her half my sammich
*Chilled at the house for a bit
*Picked up John
*Went to whole foods for dinner
*Went to the mall - FYI & arcade.. got stuffed animal
*Brought John home then back to the house for a min
*Went to #'s AND IT SUCKED left after two hours.

It's amazing.. I realize how much that place sucks as well as all the people. Now that I'm a different person... I'm not some elitist who did blow ever weekend. I'm with a good guy who watches out for me and he's better than any drug could ever be. He's fucking amazing. Everyone is an idiot and I feel sorry for the fucks who waste their life in a place like that. People 40 years old.. It's really sad. The only reason I'm happy I went tonite is because it just helped me see what a moron I was and how I don't ever need to go back there. No more - ever again.
So now I'm here back at the house, dealing with Chad's horrible horrible parents where all they do is threaten us. You know.. It wouldn't be hard to pull a gun to their head and paint the wall red.
But all in all, today was decent. I got a lot accomplished and it was nice to be away from here.

n e w h a i r

So tomorrow is Jason's Pisces Party and I'm expecting it to be pretty awesome. I'll let you know how it went. I hope all of you have a great weekend. Byeee...

smile and nod

2004-03-10T10:03:46Z

You are Pumpkin Head! You are the biggest thing to
kill this side of the universe. You scare the
shit out of me! You are the strongest killer
around!

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Hey!!!

2004-03-06T19:37:16Z

A doodoodoo, A dadada. is allll i want to say to youuu....

Kill you all and then some.

2004-03-06T07:43:26Z

All I'll say is don't read it if you don't want to I could care less.

Friday ... fucking.. somewhere inbetween SUCKED ASS and ... well, sucked.

I picked up my check to find it was only 80 bucks cuz I didn't work much last week. Went down to Chase to fix my account cuz SOMEONE never bothered to tell me that unless I have 2000+ in my account, there is a fee of 10 bucks every month and got down to -19 bucks. the fuck man... So that was 20 bucks down the shitter.

Picked up Bonnie and John from school and some fucking security guard motherfucker tried telling Chad and I we couldn't smoke until we left campus and asked how old we were. I told the fuck we didn't go to that shithole and I'm fucking 19 and he's 21 (but in a nicer way psh!) so then we dropped John off.

Bonnie and Chad and I went to Fuddruckers and it sucked and I spent fucking 25 dollars on 2 burgers, fries, and drinks... Yeah, fucking ghey. So thats minus $45.

Did I forget to mention 5 bucks worth of gas plus a pack of smokes? -$53

OK so w/e... We go back and look at photoalbums and that was cool cuz I wanted to share my history with Chad - as well as my Dad whom he may not meet for a long time.

So we pick up John and head to the Marq-e center and we end up getting caught in Pretzel time and I spend 10 or so bucks on us to have cookies, a diet coke for me and chad's ICEE. -$65.. oh yeah. movie.. -$66. OK the marq-e ended in disaster cuz Chad decided to be a meanie and we took John home early and it was a big suck.

Bonnie took us to this nice little quiet place near the railroad tracks under the full moon and it was very calming. She gave us both massages and it made everything ok again. Not to mention the amazing spontaneous kiss Chad gave me as we were walking back to the car. WHEW took my fucking breath away what a sexy bitch I love you.

So we went back to the house and looked at some more photos and watched Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas which left me in a strange mood. Bonnie was tired so we left and here I am now with fucking TEN dollars left until next Fri, a headache, acid reflux, a melancholly boyfriend, fear of work tomorrow, and a camera with NO PICTURES because I forgot. The rest of the weekend better shape up or I'm gonna knock some skulls.

Goodnight.

I'm all over this one man...

2004-03-05T03:27:22Z

I have a new layout. Yeah.

You have a lot going for you, but most people will
only remember you for one thing, and a lot of
them will try to copy it. They'll all suck at
it, though. Besides, you've got better stuff.

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Strangeness

2004-03-01T16:30:21Z

Wow it's been so long I do hope you don't think I've forgotten about everybody.
I haven't.

Life has just been... for lack of better word; crazy.
I'm going to be 20 in July and I can just feel it coming. I can feel the end of my teen years and I'm changing - way too rapidly I might add. I feel.. entirely too much right now. I'm ultrasensitive to everything and then when something does bother me I sit and ponder why it bothers me and how I can prevent it from happening the next time. I don't feel as happy as I used to.
Don't get me wrong - I'm with my soul mate and for that I am blessed, but something in me is missing. I'm a cancer and every 4 hours, 4 days, 4 months, and 20 years we go thru life changes. This one is more dramatic. I feel sort of like I'm wandering around alone in some different time frame around a bunch of different people that I know to be people I know, but aren't. Everyone is different and my fingers even feel different typing to you now.
I just really wish it would stop. It needs to go away. I feel sick. I feel like something is very very wrong and I have no control over it. Why am I like this?

Chad is doing an amazing job at being there for me and feeding me all the sickly love he can possibly give me. He knows that I know. I'm working now and that's not going as well as I hoped but ahhh whatever.
I know tomorrow.. tonight.. whatever.. I'll have a differnent opinion. We'll just have to see where it all ends up. I'll keep you posted.

Oh yeah, I bleached the front end of my hair and it's getting longer which is very good. I bought a new ceramic flat iron so.. yes good stuff. Buh Bye.

I love you chad. I love you bonnie. I even love you too john. I love zeus.